There's this French idiom that has no true translation to English it goes a such - l'esprit de l'escalier. It stands for the feeling you get after leaving a conversation when you think of all the things you should have said. Something that happens to me more often than naught, but here and now I thought you might like to know a little about me, I do hope I did not leave anything out.
Where did you find the term lagniappe?
Not on the internet if that's what you thought. I spent a total of nine months in New Orleans and learned the word while working at Commander's Palace.
Why were you at Commander's Palace?
I was there on an internship for my B.A. in Culinary Arts which I received about a year ago.
So are you currently working in a restaurant?
No, as of right now I no longer am a cook, however, I have started working in another area of the culinary industry writing HACCP plans. Although I no longer work directly with food my passion for cooking still remains even though I have decided to devote my time to escorting and other areas of self-learning.
What other passions do you have besides cooking?
I don't know if I would call them passions, but I enjoy learning - I was teaching myself French, but put that on pause to improve my grammar skills - and I dream of travel. After the dreams end though, I love waking up and doing yoga and meditation, and now a little bit of tai chi, and I hope to one day be able to sew my own garments. I greatly enjoy music and have cultivated quite a bit of respect for film which I think stems from my childhood love for the theater. I have other interests such as reading, cars, and museums - mainly the Art Institute. I could probably go one, but I'll end there for now.
What type of music do you enjoy?
I enjoy almost everything, and even the genres that I openly dislike - screamo and country - have pieces of work that I listen to. Although I rarely listen to music around other people I would say 80 percent of my life is spent with headphones on and music playing. There are so many different genres, and all express different feelings, stories, trials, and tribulations. Music is a way of capturing human emotion almost perfectly.
How about your favorite film?
I'm not sure I have a favorite film quite yet, but then again how could anyone pick. I think the first time I had any real appreciation for the film was when I watched Valhalla Rising, although I did not find enjoyment in the plot the videography was gorgeous. Then there are others that I respect the main one being Citizen Kane. Finally, there are those movies I would tell people to watch - Casablanca, Good Morning Vietnam, Reservoir Dogs - just to name a few.
What was the first play you ever saw?
I think I was five and my mother smuggled me into the theater to see Houdini, it was a musical. I don't remember anything about it, but I hope to one day see it again as an adult.
What's the best book you've ever read?
Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky and not because it's that the last book I've read since high school, because, it isn't. It is the best book I have ever read, because, it taught me the meaning of 'don't judge a book by its cover.' I still remember realizing for the first time in my life that I didn't want justice to be served. It was at that time that I realized that we all have reasons for what we do and it isn't my place to judge because if I was in your shoes I would probably be doing the same.
Do you have a dream car?
So I don't drive, but that doesn't mean I don't know how to. It's just I prefer bicycling and public transportation. However, if I was to ever start driving again I would say a '65 Mustang. Whether it be a hardtop or convertible I don't think I care, but it must be black or red and have the double stripes down the front. And yes, I want it in stick, because it wouldn't be a classic without it.
In your eyes what's the most interesting piece of art you've seen?
Sky Above Clouds IV by Georgia O'Keffee and although I am not normally a fan of abstract art, this is the most interesting piece I've ever seen. I've stood in front of that piece with so many different people and everyone seems to see something different in it. That to me is what art is about, a sense of wonder.
What's the single best day on the calendar?
It's not my birthday if that's what you were expecting, although Cinco de Mayo will always hold a special day in my heart. After all, it is my personal New Years. But no, I think Halloween is the single best day, because, it is the only day that you can be whatever you want or in some cases, you can be who you are and nobody cares.
What makes a good life?
Being in the moment, that's what I'm supposed to say right?
It's not that I don't believe that, but what about the past? What about the future? It's important to stop and smell the roses, respect the past, and move forward always.
So who inspires you to be better?
My grandmother, she knew how to speak French, Spanish, German, and English. She put up with my grandfather, raised three girls, and at 93 learned to use a cellphone and was teaching her friends how to use a computer. The woman has a busier schedule than I do. Yet, one day I realized she had flaws - everybody does - and that I didn't want to be her, but that I wanted to be better than her. It is wiser to learn the strengths and understand the weaknesses of the people we look up to so that we ourselves can become better.
How might a friend describe you?
Well, it depends on who you talk to, over Thanksgiving, my sister looked at me and said I looked like a 1950s housewife, and my roommate has told me I look timeless. However, my roommate has also informed that I am a feminist - not that I think that's bad. Then there's my best friend who in the same sentence will tell me I annoy her and am a horrible person, she loves me, and she doesn't want me to leave her life. What I do know is that my friends are important to me, and I to them - yes we have ups and downs but our connections are what keep us going.
Why did you decide to be an escort?
I love human connection, getting to know who you are and what makes you tick. People are enigmas wrapped in gorgeous disguises. I like taking off that disguise and meeting the person underneath it, finding out what they love and hate. Finding out why they wake up every morning, their boundaries, their aptitude for forgiveness. I yearn to know if they can open their mind, learn, change, whether they judge behind other's backs or speak the truth. I want to know what they believe in. People are interesting and no one is the same, but we are all beautiful, all different, all special.